prolly im not the right one to reply to ge. but anyway

i kinda agree, its not easy to have yur confidence smashed completely in the matter of a few months, and i feel so diminished now as compared to when i was in rg. forgive me ive been feeling kinda nostalgic since i went back. sentimentalized or not i realise this much has changed: back then, everyone was the contre of my life and i was the centre of everyone else's. there is capacity, im sure, for one to do that- but over here i dont feel much at all. everyones elsewhere and i feel very lonely sometimes, so i just make a lot of noise to fill it up.

i suppose a lot of what anyone feels now depends on what we hold as essential to our being. and i typed some more but i dont know why and the com erased it and blah.

actaully that didnt make quite much sense. [prolly didnt make any at all. ha.] comes from me having had too good a lunch, and being kinda dazed after shopping for friday.